Flaming Womb
I added flames around the womb for my Mother piece. These are dyed mohair locks that I got at last year’s Wool Fest.
You know those flaming hearts that are sometimes in religious paintings? I find them both repulsive and fascinating. Those paintings inspired my flaming womb.
There is so much anger and resentment between my mother and I. I’ve also had anger and resentment toward my own womb. My periods have always been painful. This piece is part of my healing. I want to release the anger and the resentment and the pain so I’m pouring it into this art.
I’ve also added scars. The meaning is twofold. The scars represent my relationship to my mother-we are both emotionally scarred from it. While researching Endometriosis I learned that the womb can develop scar tissue. I don’t know if I have scar tissue but I probably do. My mother certainly does because she had a hysterectomy. The scars are black because the wounds are toxic. The stitches over the scars are blood because the blood heals the wound.
December’s period was the worst I’ve ever had-fourteen days total of bleeding. The second half was spotting but still-it freaked me out. I took it as a wake up call and changed my diet. I’m on a low fat, low dairy, low sugar, low caffeine, high fiber diet. Cutting back on coffee is by far the hardest sacrifice.
But this month’s period was way better. Five days of normal period, four days of spotting. I felt relieved at my improvement. After more research I suspected I had a Progesterone deficiency. I started taking wild yam pills and cream. So far I haven’t noticed much difference. But my hands are now warm which is new; I’ve always had cold hands.
The mother piece hasn’t been worked on this year. The Beyond The Fringe artists can only have two pieces of art in this year’s show. I need to make time to work on it again soon. It just feels like I should.
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